Today is New Years Eve. It kinda a rough day for me, every day on this day it brings me back to the day 12 years ago when my dad broke his back. It changed our family forever. I have worked hard over the years to get over the depression of it that my dad will never be the same and WHY did this happen to him. But I try and focus more on it has brought us together as a family. I probably wouldn't have stayed at home and went to college closer to home and I may not have met my husband then. Also I would not be living in my childhood home raising my twin daughters. I just have to remember God has a plan for everything even if you can't see the layout of it...its there. I was playing with my daughter today and I came across a Buzz Light Year McDonalds toy. My dad had gotten that in a happy meal he had eaten earlier that week of his accident and he gave it to me the morning he fell. It was weird that just touching that doll made me think of that. It was just a McDonalds toy but I could not get rid of it. SO now my daughter play with it but it can bring back that memory in a flash. I didn't see him for a couple of day after he fell and was in the hospital because mom didn't want us to see him all swollen after his surgery, plus we were already wrecks. I had just turned 14 in September, Greg was 15 and Katie was 23.
I think sometimes it is weird that my daughters will never know their Pop to walk. My husband never knew my father to walk. I remember being so jealous of my sister because she had gotten married the year before and my dad got to dance with her and I though that would never happen for me(my dad di manage most of our song to dance with me at my wedding:-)) But it was my childishness that made me think of that. I am so bless that God has kept him here and kept our family close and made it so big. SO I hope that we will make new memories with New Years so that I will recall the good memories not just the ones that make me sad and the girls will help Pop feel better today also cause this is always a rough day for him emotionally as well:-) Love you Daddy!!!!
About Me
- doublethelove
- My name is Sarah Paff. I married my husband at the age of 23 on July 1st, 2006. Little did I know before our first anniversary we would expand our family...not by one but by TWO! June 6, 2007 Emma Rose and Anna Grace blessed our lives. Without planning it God gave me a beautiful family to love and care for each and every day! I am lucky enough to have a husband who allowed me to quit my job and stay at home with our loves, I would not change that for the world, all that I have seen and they have learned from me being home with them is worth more than the paycheck I would have received.
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