New Years Eve

Today is New Years Eve. It kinda a rough day for me, every day on this day it brings me back to the day 12 years ago when my dad broke his back. It changed our family forever. I have worked hard over the years to get over the depression of it that my dad will never be the same and WHY did this happen to him. But I try and focus more on it has brought us together as a family. I probably wouldn't have stayed at home and went to college closer to home and I may not have met my husband then. Also I would not be living in my childhood home raising my twin daughters. I just have to remember God has a plan for everything even if you can't see the layout of it...its there. I was playing with my daughter today and I came across a Buzz Light Year McDonalds toy. My dad had gotten that in a happy meal he had eaten earlier that week of his accident and he gave it to me the morning he fell. It was weird that just touching that doll made me think of that. It was just a McDonalds toy but I could not get rid of it. SO now my daughter play with it but it can bring back that memory in a flash. I didn't see him for a couple of day after he fell and was in the hospital because mom didn't want us to see him all swollen after his surgery, plus we were already wrecks. I had just turned 14 in September, Greg was 15 and Katie was 23.
I think sometimes it is weird that my daughters will never know their Pop to walk. My husband never knew my father to walk. I remember being so jealous of my sister because she had gotten married the year before and my dad got to dance with her and I though that would never happen for me(my dad di manage most of our song to dance with me at my wedding:-)) But it was my childishness that made me think of that. I am so bless that God has kept him here and kept our family close and made it so big. SO I hope that we will make new memories with New Years so that I will recall the good memories not just the ones that make me sad and the girls will help Pop feel better today also cause this is always a rough day for him emotionally as well:-) Love you Daddy!!!!

Dat kinda night

John and I were talking and he said he noticed this year was much eaier with Christmas and the girls, they seemed to already be settling down from all the excitement. (other then the "Momma I want Santa to bring me this tonight"s) Well I think he spoke too soon...something was up with Emma tonight:-( We tried to put her to sleep and she just kept crying saying she left "dat" in the other room. What "dat" was I still don't really know. "Dat" became "her" became "hers pink" became "hers a small doggie". WE DON'T HAVE A SMALL PINK DOGGIE!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! What is she talking about...I let her come out and search and nothing but more tears...finally I found Magenta a big pink doggie which seemed to kinda be enough for a minute...then more tears. I need my mommy!!!! To make the matter worse Anna will not fall asleep unless her sister is in bed next to her. SO she keeps talking trying to find out where her Emms is but Emms is still looking for "Dat". SO needless to say my brain is drained and I am afraid to go by the girls room to see if Emma is still awake, I can hear Anna snoozing but I don't think I can deal with "dat" anymore tonight. Praying for a good full nights sleep for me and the girls so we can play with our new toys tomorrow!

BEST CHRISTMAS EVER

I have a new found love of Christmas. I saw first hand what it is for a 2 1/2. My girls were SO excited Christmas morning to wake up and find daddy was off work and Santa had left new reindeer PJs and slippers beside their bed. As I got them dressed in there new PJs John "checked" to see if Santa had left anything out under the tree, meanwhile Mimi and Pop had made there way downstairs. Daddy call out to the girls and we came out they were so excited Emma ran over to the first gift and just ripped in...lol it was for her daddy, John. But she didn't care she was so happy! They were so good about taking there time to get every piece of paper off of the gifts before asking for it to be open. Anna was in love with her Abby Cadabby, she kept going back over to her. They got everything they asked for mickey mouse clubhouse, kitchen and some dolls. Money is tighter now that I don't work and we have the girls. I laughed and told my husband that this is the smallest Christmas I have ever seen the night before, isn't it AMAZING that the smallest Christmas was THE BEST CHRISTMAS I HAVE EVER HAD!!!!! Thank you God for blessing me with my angels, Emma and Anna make each day so special. They make me special!